madlingen

every movement a meditation
every breath a prayer

I know these moments come and go
I know that living life like this constantly would short circuit something
I know that the temporary nature of these experiences make them that much more powerful

so I'll be satisfied in this knowing and be
rather than wish it were different
I'll honor and accept what is.

Good god, this is gonna feel awful when I come down from this high.
It's gonna hurt like a son of a bitch.

The chemical bit of new love is one of the most amazing substances I've ever had in my body, but the come down, wow.
What the hell it was worth it and I'd do it again. I just hope that the come down is quick.

So many times in so many aspects of my life I've held back so as not to; look a fool, get feelings hurt, be seen as weak, offend anyone else. The constant self buffering has taken me out of the field of play in many areas, but hell with it. I'll love as wildly and freely as I can, and I'll accept the consequences.

Why would I say no to the magnetic appeal, why should I not enjoy the fun and passion of infatuation?

So when the hurtin comes, I'll honor it and learn from it as well.

Besides, eyes that blue and lips that soft were made for sharing and staring into. I'll take the downs with the ups. And if I am the fool, well I'm gonna be a damn good one. Besides not loving him isn't even an option.